Finding Joy in my weakness

I was thinking today about my day yesterday and how much I was blessed by over 100 written prayers, over 75 emails and what I am sure was and still is, thousands of silent prayers around the globe. It is amazing what a little extra prayer support can do. I am renewed and I am waiting on the Lord.   

I spent much of today glued to Little Ivy. Talking to her, reading to her, singing to her, putting lotion on her, combing her hair and getting all those tangles out of the back of her head. I also took a 2 hour walk in to Brookline and through some parks. It was food for my soul just out in the fresh air, me and God. I walk to the hospital in the morning and home at night and since Ivy has been sleeping, I have been taking walks every afternoon. But todays walk was special. I wandered off and walked farther than I had ever felt comfortable, and yet I was very comfortable. 

As I was walking I was repeating over and over  2 Corinthians 12:9  My gracious favor is all you need. My power works best in your weakness. 

When we are weak and suffering and in need (me yesterday) Gods power is there. In fact, his strength finds it's full scope in our weakness. Today, I can see clearly, it was a gift from God to be in that weak state. 

It's so easy to find our own coping mechanisms without even realizing it. 

I read a book recently that had a quote from an old pastor. It said, It takes our weakness to become aware of our need for His strength. And it is our weakness that shows His strength in us! 

Therefore, when we are weak, we are really strong and mighty and powerful because God's strength is revealed in us. 

Wow, how humbling that yesterday was actually what I needed.

All that I am able to handle and endure is because of Him. All because of His grace and never shaken love! He is the powerful one, He is the Mighty one, and while this journey endures, His grace endures as well! 

Many comment on my strength through all of this. My strength is God's rival. It covers His work. But my weakness is his servant, it allows His power to shine through!!!

Love and Joy from Mary and Sleepy in Boston! (Yes, She is still sleeping) 

Answers to comments
 Ivy does not have any kind of patch. 
I have played many videos of her sisters talking to her, she does not respond yet.
Yes, the drugs she is overdosed on is Adivan and Versed. She will not be able to get them in a drip any more. 
No I do not believe her first surgery was in vain. It brought her to the next part of her journey. Gods plan is never in vain, He loves his children more than we do. Remember when Paul begged Jesus to take away the thorn and the pain. But the Lord did not take away the thorn.
He gave paul grace for the pain. And He gave Paul the reason the thorn would remain. For my power is made perfect in weakness. Jesus has a higher purpose for our lives than we can ever imagine. He wants us to have a power filled existence. Even a tiny girl like Ivy can be used in might big ways by the one who created her for His purpose. And they say Ivy is lucky, Oh they have no idea how special this child is!