Hold me!

I think that my heart may have broken in 5 different places in just the past 3 hours. It is midnight now, Ivy is getting her breathing treatment. She is awake and she is thirsty! She wants her mommy to hold her, she reaches her arms out wide open and I can't hold her. It is the hardest thing you can imagine. I try to lean on her and touch her with every part of me so she feels almost like she is being held and she shakes her head no and puts those arms right out there again! I want to scoop her up so bad it hurts! And she is so thirsty. They give her a damp washcloth to put in her mouth and my sweet girl tries to suck the life out of it! She trembles, hands shaking like crazy, head trembling as she tries to shove it in her mouth and suck it! This is hard!!! Watching your child thrash around of thirst, watching her beg for the comfort of a mothers touch, being held by her mommy. Oh yes, hard!! And yet it is also another milestone reached, she is awake, she is one step closer! 
Tonight Ivy has a collapsed left lung. She has a whole lot of junk in that lung and she is getting lots of treatments to try and get it out. Cough and suction is the best and they are doing this with her right now. She is coughing, this is so so good!!! 
Ivy has a cannula for her oxygen. She is getting 10 liters per minute! That is enough to blow a 17 pound baby right out of her bed!! Remember she got 2 liters at home! But she is so far tolerating the 10 liters and it is keeping her O2 saturation in the high 80's to low 90's. 
We thank you again for your specific prayers and will update you as we see change. Thank you again for being a part of Ivy's story and Gods perfect plan!